Dance with me here for a time,
Memories fresh in my
mind,
Opened the door just
a crack,
Caught off guard by
what does remind.
Of the life that once came before,
Of the beauty I chose to ignore,
Don’t know what you’ve lost,
Never counted the cost,
Couldn’t know the horrors in store.
Laughter and lightness long-gone,
Days upon end without dawn,
Heartache and longing they grip,
Unspoken words never passed from my lips,
Feeling I’m forgotten, don’t belong.
Stuck in slow-motion and frozen in time,
Reminiscences serve to chastise and bind,
Let them go, ease my grasp, let them flow,
Caught up in sorrow, regret, and turmoil,
Can’t progress nor neither rewind.
Am I condemned to a life of remorse –
Ever-searching, ever-roaming, off course?
Will the reminders remain?
Am I unable to change?
Is there nothing more to look toward?
Of my past, only a remnant remains,
But it ties and it taunts, fills with pain,
Haunted by opportunities missed,
Too numerous are they to all list,
Can I untangle and loosen the chains?
I tell myself all the right phrases,
Offer encouragement, hope, and fresh praises,
But deep down in my heart,
Where I am broken apart,
Wonder if the truth does betray this.
What more can I do to keep the faith –
Ensure my hope and beliefs aren’t misplaced?
Ever-seeking, ever-pleading, never ceasing,
My plight, my daunting path, never easing,
On my knees beseeching, pursuing, begging for mercy and
grace.
I’ll trudge forward, much as I always have,
Count my blessings, accept the good and the bad,
But what lesson, what message, have I missed?
Why do I continue to resist and insist?
If this is for gain, for glory, am I not glad?
I cannot help but question the plan,
A mere human, not God above man,
But my fate’s not my own,
A life not mine but on loan,
Lost and helpless, it’s all in Your hands.
You laid the foundations and offered a door,
Who am I to question or demand any more?
Hear my cries, see my plight,
Soothe my soul, dry my eyes,
Fill me up, overflowing, I implore.
Dance with me here for a time,
Memories fresh in my mind,
Opened the door just a crack,
Caught off guard by what does remind.
